When I begin to feel sorry for myself as a Greek-American in the middle of
the wilderness and among people that are not anything like me where Muslims
and Jews slaughter each other for the plight of the Promised Land, I simply
look down at the Jordan Valley where Mary of Egypt spent more than forty
years of her life and try to muster up some courage and strength from her
devotion to the Lord in order to clean her soul and seek forgiveness where
she came to this Promised Land just for the fun of it and for a free ride
with pilgrims who actually led her to a life changing experience that she
never dreamed about until she could not enter the Church of the Holy
Sepulchre. It is documented in the Greek Orthodox Patriarchate that Mary of
Egypt had a vision of the Virgin Mary who instructed her to go beyond the
Jordan River and seek forgiveness of her sins. Thus the story of this great
saint is constantly used as a role model especially during the Holy Lenten
Season for many centuries. But for me being geographically right above the
Jordan Valley, the story of Mary of Egypt, is a powerful reminder of the
dedication and love people have for God.

The only comfort that I have in this little small village and the only
connection that I can feel as an Orthodox Christian in the middle of nowhere
is that Christ did walk into this area known as Biblical Ephraim right
before His crucifixion. "Jesus therefore walked no more openly among the
Jews; but went thence unto a country near the wilderness, into a city called
Ephraim..." (John 11:54).

The village of Taybeh had the biblical name Ephraim in Judea. The biblical
name was changed to the modern name Taybeh by the Islamic leader Salahdin
around 1187. The folktale states that Salahdin visited the village Ephraim
and found its people very hospitable and generous thus he made a statement
that they are "Taybehn" people in Arabic meaning "good and kind," thereby
since that day biblical Ephraim took the modern name "Taybeh." .

Our village of Taybeh is the only all Christian village that remains in
Palestine twenty minutes outside Jerusalem before the ancient town of
Jericho with 1300 residents all of whom are Christian and the majority is
Greek Orthodox. All residents are Palestinians with a handful of outsiders.
Following the l967 Israeli invasion of the West Bank thousands of people
from Taybeh have emigrated to Australia, America and Europe due to the
politics, bad economic situation and daily suffering faced under military
occupation. The village is located between Jerusalem and Jericho in the
biblical land of Judea.

In the early 90-F¢s my husband David and his brother Nadim were greatly
influenced by their family to return from Boston where we were students at
Hellenic College and invest in Palestine especially with the opportunity of
the historic Oslo agreement where we hoped Israelis and Palestinians could
co-exist and have a prosperous future together. After investing millions of
dollars in the Palestinian economy and producing the one and only
Palestinian beer, Taybeh Beer, which is actually the only micro-brewed beer
in the entire Middle East area, we found ourselves in a collapsed economy
following the Second Palestinian Uprising (September 28, 2000) as the
Israelis reoccupied the Palestinian territories. While many families that
had come to invest in Palestine could not handle the checkpoints and daily
shootings they returned to their host countries but we continued to watch
the Palestinian people seek freedom and self determination while my husband
produced beer and I published children¢s literature to help promote values
and traditions of the Holy Orthodox Church also knows as the Christina Books
with the newest being Christina Goes to the Holy Land to promote a Christian
presence in Palestine and the first out of seven being Christina Goes to
Church to help children understand symbolism.

I found myself as a Greek-American mother of three children that I could not
even take to school because of the hundreds of military checkpoints set up
all around us to protect the illegal Israeli settlers who have been living
on confiscated Taybeh land since the invasion of the West Bank in 1967. I
found myself driving on roads created for Jews only to by-pass the Arab
villages where at night Palestinians would kill settlers and in the daytime
settlers would shoot Palestinians. I could be a target for both since I was
neither Palestinian nor Israeli and I spent several months physically
shacking like a drug addict as I drove to school. For several years I would
leave my home at 6:45 a.m. never knowing if I would return in the afternoon.
There is nothing else to feel when people all around you kill each other
daily and you could simply die by being in the wrong place at the wrong
time.

Although I have always believed in Christ since I was born into a Greek
Orthodox family and raised by devout parents, it is particularly in this war
situation that I felt my life on earth is meaningless and seeking a life
with Christ is what God calls upon us to do. I thought that my life on
earth can end at any moment and besides the fancy house, the expensive
jewelry, the luxury car what treasures do I really have that are
everlasting?

The violence in our area was so intense and the checkpoints so many that I
also lost my job as an educator with the Latin Patriarchate Schools and
contributed to the 60% unemployment rate of Palestine. As a professional
person I felt into a deep depression not being employed and furthermore I
felt even more depressed since my husband could not leave or did not want to
leave and return to Boston. In my small mind I grew up thinking that the
family is the mom, dad and the kids but in Palestine the family is also the
grandparents and all the aunts and the uncles. My husband could not escape
to freedom while leaving his family behind. I really had to struggle to be
an obedient wife and to wake up to a man every morning that I began to think
of as my enemy but in front of God had taken vows to honor and to respect.
I was frustrated that the extended family was more important than me. I am
sure now this is the reason that Palestine has being emptied out of its
Christian population since 1948 with the creation of Israel because when one
person relocates outside the country, they actually just take everyone else
with them meaning the whole extended family or clan.

I find it so very sad that when I frequently venerate Christ¢s Holy Tomb the
most precious and sacred spot for Christianity where Christ¢s Holy
Resurrection took place and the miracle of the Holy Fire continues to take
place every year on Holy Saturday that the Israeli tour guide will say to
pilgrims: -Y´I cannot go in there with you but I will wait right here¡ so its
kind of showing the holy places like a place of a museum where we are in
deep need to keep our Christian community here and have people worshiping
the Lord in churches throughout the Holy Land not just empty shrines. I
don-F¢t object to an ecumenical presence in Jerusalem and sharing the land
with everyone but I promote specifically that Palestinian Christian people
should have their basic human right to stay where they were born and their
parents were born instead of being squeezed out by the Zionist policies of
making a 100% Jewish homeland for Jews only.

I have tried to find some type of meaning in my life living in war and
unemployed and living as a foreigner in a country that I never really wanted
to come too and can list at least fifty reasons why I do not want to live in
a Palestinian village. But the one reason overshadows all the others and
that is my faith in God. I make every effort to trust in the Lord¢s plan
for me and to understand why certain things have happened to me thus helping
me take my next breath in moments when I felt like dying.

I try very hard to believe that when God shuts doors of opportunity for you
it means you have to open not just your eyes but your heart and soul to find
the windows of opportunity in His Divine Plan for each and everyone of us
which basically these days I truly feel it is only to give glory to God and
worship our creator. As humans, we are put here on earth to struggle and
through the pain and suffering to make efforts to speak to God. I truly
believe I would be speaking to God less if I continued to live in my middle
class house in Boston, taught at Boston University, took my children to
hockey, soccer and Greek School and tried to have a beautiful vacation each
summer because basically I would be so busy and on such a perfect and
wonderful routine that I would not need God. You do not need God when you
are engulfed in the materialism of this world.

I know God through pain, suffering and struggling at all levels, physical,
emotional, mental and spiritual. I know God because I tried to understand
the road in life He put before me and how is it that I could use my skills
and knowledge to give Glory to His Holy Name. I know God because I tried to
carry my cross with faith and dignity and when my cross was so heavy it is
really God who sent people who might have even been angels, I am not sure,
but they prayed for me, they inspired me with their personal faith in the
Lord, they encouraged me to trust in God and they reminded me that God loves
me and never would put me in a situation that I could not handle because He
truly knows my heart and strength. I know God only by pure faith. I know
God only by others who have inspired me by their presence.

I know God because I have seen the light and have experienced the miracle of
the Holy Fire. The ceremony of the Holy Fire is one of the most magnificent
celebrations in the Holy Land that has been overshadowed because of the
violence and turmoil that this region has experienced. Living the cycle of
death every day has made it even more important for Christians to celebrate
Christ in Our Midst and place all of our hope in the Savior. Many years of
killing, back and forth, people here have surely been living in the darkness
of all evil. It would therefore seem even more important than ever to see
Christ as the true light and to be inspired towards peaceful ways to
coexist. As it is written in the Gospel of John, "And the light shineth in
darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not." (John 1:5)

As a small Christian community in the Holy Land we have a duty to share this
message with the entire international community. To give hope to people that
might be suffering from darkness in other corners of the world. At the
Orthodox Easter service we sing:

-Y´You arose, O Christ, and yet the tomb remained sealed,
as at Your birth the Virgin-F¢s womb remained unharmed;
and You have opened for us the gates of paradise.-Y¡

During the ceremony, Orthodox Christians remember that Christ is the One Who
has smashed the gates of Hades and opened the gates of Paradise, and gone
before us! Seeing the Life-Giving Tomb of Christ is another reminder of our
final destiny. As a small Christian community we want to witness and reflect
Christ-F¢s eternal love. We pray for peace and hope Jerusalem can be an open
city of all faiths so Christian pilgrims from all over the world can come
and be inspired and spiritually uplifted by the true Light of Christ and
share the richness of the Christian roots that exist in the Holy Land.

Having married a Palestinian Orthodox Christian husband has taken me to a
journey of a life time. However, in this long walk I realized the Promised
Land that I am living in now is not a physical entity and the Israel that we
sing and chant in our gospels is not the Israel on the ground now that I see
with guns, tanks and armored jeeps in the Holy Land. As Christian people,
we are the new Israel because we have been baptized unto Christ and received
our Lord and Savior. Our Promised Land is God¢s heavenly kingdom where we
seek to be in the ever presence of Christ, the King of Peace. It is by our
very presence here in the Holy Land that as Christian people we can promote
non-violent resolutions to oppression and condemn violence. It is very
important to keep a Christian presence in the Holy Land to witness for
Christ¢s peace and love for neighbor.

Our current situation reminds us that Christians are called not merely to
love God with all their heart, mind, soul and strength; and their neighbor
as themselves. These are the chief commandments of the Old Testament. But
we Christians are called to hear the Lord of the New Testament and to
fulfill His commands found in Matthew 5: -Y´Love your enemies; Do good to
those who hate you; Bless those who curse you; Pray for those who abuse you;
Turn the other check to those who strike you.¡

The most frequently asked question is why I stay in the Holy Land with such
violence when I can afford to return financially and professionally any time
to the United States. I think my gut reaction to this question is that I am
doing my best to understand God-F¢s will in my life and follow it because I
often think that if I was following my will, I would be drinking my
-Y´kafedaki¡ coffee and taking nature walks in Tripoli where I was born. The
fondest memory of Tripoli as a six year old child is during the Resurrection
Service at Prophet Elias Church when my late father, Constantine, handed me
a candle and said ´Christos Anesti.¡ Thus if Christ is truly Risen we must
also rise with Him in a new life with God seeking to save our soul and to
follow one of the most important commandments, ´Love your neighbor as
yourself.¡

Thus I live day by day trying to understand the gospel and especially since
2000, I have made every effort to serve the Church of Saint George in Taybeh
as a volunteer specifically for a housing project to help young couples
build their first home. Thirty families were on the list to save about $100
each month (if they could) to be part of a housing cooperative that would
help them obtain land to use for free from the Greek Orthodox Patriarchate
in Jerusalem. A committee would fundraise to help assist these needy
families whom none had $50,000 up front to build their home. Nine years
later and finally with the help of the Metropolis of Boston, the Virginia
Farah Foundation as the largest donor, and many churches and individuals
across the world the first $90,000 was raised to start building these homes.
Frustrated with lack of funds since 1997, half of the members of the
housing project dropped out and withdrew their personal savings since the
church did not have enough money to start the project. The twelve families
that continued the hope were ideally supposed to contribute $12,000 each
from their savings to match funds raised although a few are still short and
cannot come up with this amount.

August 1, 2005, the ground breaking day for the housing project, was the day
I had prayed for many years and people across the world had prayed with me
and this is the major reason I have been able to maintain inner peace and
continue to serve the church although we embarked on years of daily
bloodshed and violence all around us with the Israeli/Palestinian conflict
with the Muslims and the Israelis slaughtering each other while the
Christians are stuck in-between.

On August 1, 2005 the land allocated by the late Patriarch Diodoros was
leveled for six duplex buildings that would help house twelve families as my
late father-in-law, Canaan David Khoury had planned as the founder of the
project. In order to maximize job creation, six different contractors built
the units and all workers that specialized in this labor had temporary work
from August 2005 until April 2006 when finally the skeleton structure of
twelve homes was completed. Now the families are responsible to finish
their homes from the inside because we have tried every humanitarian
organization in the book and none exist to help with building private homes.
I personally feel if it took me that many years just to raise what my
catholic colleagues can raise in a week then probably I need another life
time to finish these homes especially since we are in a deficit of $48,000.
However, I do believe in miracles and in great friends like Marilyn
Rouvelas, author of A Guide to Greek Traditions and Customs in America who
helped me understand I must do a lot of ground work to help raise awareness
about the Christian presence in the Holy Land and who trusted I could do
this through books resulting in the publication of Christina Goes to the
Holy Land for children. A colorful book that walks the footsteps of Jesus
with the message that Christians need help to stay in the Holy Land.
(www.saintgeorgetaybeh.org )

Editor's Note: Dr. Maria C. Khoury is the author of seven Orthodox Christian children's books including the latest, Christina Goes to the Holy Land . She is a graduate of Hellenic College , Harvard University and Boston University . She lives in the Occupied Palestinian territories with her husband David C. Khoury, also a Hellenic College graduate and founder of Taybeh Beer the only microbrewery in the Middle East and the only Palestinian Beer established in l994 following the Oslo Peace Agreement.